Why are you worried about something so minimal? It's okay!
And I know he's right, in my heart. But it appears my brain likes to go in circus mode, spinning round and round the negativity throughout the day, until I'm so exhausted I finally fall asleep.
Why do I do this to myself? It isn't that I'm not doing things. I do plenty of things. I take care of my incredible and high needs baby. I do domestic things around the house (cooking, cleaning, laundry). I do have several plants in pots outside that I tend to. I have started one knitting project. I keep up to date with my family in So-Cal and in Texas. I have been working on writing again, hence this blog. I mean, I really am doing things. Why is it so hard to convince myself it is enough?
Today I decide that, yes, it is enough. I am not on some sort of life schedule that I have to have anything done at a certain time at a certain date or I'm not worthy. I get things done when I can, and it is okay if its not exactly when I want it to be done. Everything is exactly how it should be.
My life doesn't have to be based on fantasy, and really, it isn't. It is hard to see the pieces fitting together when you look at something through a microscope. But assuredly, the pieces, even if they look insignificant, will all equal into a beautiful picture, much grander than anyone could ever imagine. I need to trust that it will always work out, because it always does in the end.
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